i had someone mention that i seem angry.

and that irritates me.

i mean, i know i'm generally the happy, silly, "look at me i'm a monkey", kind of girl. i manage my depression, and don't talk about it that often. it's really nobody's baggage but mine to carry, so i don't ask anyone else to deal with it.

i don't think i'm an angry person, i am a person that has a lot going on in her life. this has been a terrible year. looking for new work, losing my grandfather, being disappointed in friends, having to rely on others for support, realizing that this month i should have had a baby...and so on.

so i wrote a rant about my neighbors, hell i'm home right now, it's what i know. when people write about co-workers...no one says "you seem angry" they acknowledge that their work environment sucks at the moment, well guess what? mine does too.

i'm just asking to be given the benefit of the doubt. I've been reminded about all this "free time" i have, and how "now you just need to get work", and "have you looked for work today?" and so on. do me a favor, think this all you want, talk amongst yourselves, but don't say it to me. it's painful. believe me i've sent out 9 million resumes ( literally ) and i'm doing the very best i can. I'd appreciate not being judged.

thanks kids.