what's it mean to be content to you and what's it worth? ( and yes tex, it's conTENT, not CONtent)

does it's definition or worth change on a daily basis? moment to moment?

how much is external and how much internal?

is it something that can be thought out, or is it a decision you make?

i ask because i read the blog of a friend who seems to be struggling with that concept, and it's made me thing.


i'm a HIGHLY content person right about now. i have several things i'd change, several things i am actively changing, and lots of things i'm happy to leave just as they are. but i think part of the reason i'm happy and content, is because i DECIDED to be.

for me that was what made all the difference. luckily, chemically my brain is firing well, so it makes it easier to make that decision, and to bounce back when the dark seems to swirl around...but really, it came down to a decision.

i'm sure if i sat around and thought about all i wanted, or thought i needed/would have/ would be by now, i'd be fetal and listening to weepy music and praying for the sweet release of death....but again, with the decision to focus on what i have.

i'm not saying outright or trying to imply that reflection and introspection aren't necessary things, and looking at what you wish for isn't important...but i know this. ( and here's where i get a little new-agey and "unity" so sue me )

"whatever you focus on expands"

if i'm thinking about how miserable i am, guess what, i find more miserable everywhere i go. miserable people, situations, outcomes.
if i'm in a position of gratitude, peace, and joy, that's what i find.

right now i can remember that, and live it.


it helps with the content and grateful.