V-very much hate it
A-always seem to not have a man on this day
L-loser
E-even though i know that last one isn't true - it feels it
N-need (i need) to get off the pity bus
T-today is another day that i didn't wake up dead
I-i look hot today (sporting GREEN)
N-new haircolor will put a spring in a girl's step
E-excellent friends all around me

ok - that was my lame attempt at going to the happy place on a wet, rainy, icky, monday's valentine's day .... did it work?! not so much, but i have resolved to NOT listen to Al Green today ... at least for these first couple of hours at work ... then we'll see if my mood picks up.

thanks to the broad shouldered man for listening to me yesterday - it's a pretty damn cool thing. .. and to tasty for listening to me cry on the phone at 12:30 ...and for being all naked in the bathtub while she listened to me..and to chicago mary for listening to me online.. i'm trying VERY hard not to let this one stupid day not take me to the bad place.


so who wants to be my valentine?


*****
i take it back. i'm no longer interested in having a valentine. i have friends that love me. i have a dog i adore. i have good hair.

i'm done.

i'm sick of crying - ( yet thankful for waterproof mascara )

i'm gonna get on the bitter bus. i'm getting off the "what's wrong with me" bus - to the " do you realize how fucked up you are bus" { of course i reserve the right to rebus at any moment }

if i shed ONE MORE TEAR over a man that is not my father .... or a male that doesn't have 4 legs and fur ... you all have the right to shoot me in the head.

i'm sick of hearing myownself bitch and pity it up ... so i'm shutting up. i'll be back when the funny returns.


'cause here's the deal.

i'm amazing. smart. pretty. funny. honest. sweet. kind. stable. happy. well adjusted. small amount of baggage that i can carry myownfuckingself. employed. college educated. homeowner. responsible ..... and i make an AMAZING girlfriend. i'm no longer wasting my time on those who don't/can't/won't care


that's what.